A Stabbing Dream

stab the potatoes! stab the potatoes!

stab the potatoes! stab the potatoes! (Photo credit: carbonated)

Several days ago, a woman who cut business ties with me a while back sent a message asking if I had a certain product to sell. I replied with a short, “No”.

Read No More Svengali here.

That night, I had a dream that I was working a dirty, fast paced job which I hated. I wasn’t good at it either but kept trying to do it right. There were other people working along side me and we were all employees with the same company.

Suddenly, there was a creepy woman working there too with an eighties “heavy metal” look. Without warning, she got mad at me for no reason and stabbed me with a knife. She stabbed me in the left forearm though, I’m right handed. There was no blood but the wound wouldn’t heal instead it became dead useless tissue. Whenever I met someone I told them what that woman did to me and the pain flared up every time I talked about it.

Many times, I encountered this woman and she would either threaten me with the knife or pretend she didn’t see me. I always felt that I was in danger when she was around even when she ignored me. At one point, I sensed that she intended to kill me so I got away from her by putting myself inside a room or a big car, can’t remember which.

That was a safe place where I began growing my business, not the dirty job I hated. As I went about my business, my arm heeled and the pain was gone, however, when I saw her or talked to others about her the wound re-appeared and the pain returned. Dream over.

Later in the day, it came to me that this business woman and the creepy woman in the dream are the same. The work that I hated was doing business with her and her temper “stabbed me” like a knife. My left arm was wounded but my right arm was fine so I could still work because I’m right handed. The wound and the pain re-appeared only when I thought about it.

In reality, I attempted getting along and working with her but I couldn’t trust her. I knew the whole time that she used me to get business help (because no one else on planet Earth will work with her) but I’m as guilty of using her for my own financial gain.

Q: Why did I dream about this?

A: I think that it was partly a warning to stay away from her. By sending me a message she was attempting friendly reconnection, that’s part of her MO. However, due to her irrationality, she would end up doing a Jerry Springer act and “stabbing” me again. This dream also reminded me to forgive her and stop bringing up past hurts to others because whenever I do it bothers me all over again. Hence, the re-occurring wound and pain.

Analyzing this dream and writing it down has made me feel better. It’s just like therapy.

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Dream (Photo credit: Krysthopher Woods)

 

 

Daniel 7:1 In the first year of King Belshazzar of Babylon, Daniel had a dream filled with visions while he was lying on his bed. Then he wrote down the dream in summary fashion.

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No More Svengali

Whitney Houston 1963-2012... We will always lo...

Whitney Houston 1963-2012… We will always love you!!!! (Photo credit: his grace)

I’m soooo slow!  On June 10th, I posted the question “Did Whitney Houston subconsciously abuse her voice to get away from Clive Davis?” 

Strangely, this question came to me as soon as I woke up.  I had not listened to her music or read anything about her recently.  I remembered the interview with Diane Sawyer where Whitney alluded to Clive Davis as her Svengali.

A strong feeling stayed with me that day and I thought, “Maybe this Svengali notion was less about someone I’ve never met (Whitney or Clive) and more about someone in my life.”  However, no one came to mind.

NOW I KNOW!  It was obvious but I was oblivious.

For months, I’ve been in a joint venture with a woman who has her own established business.  Since my business is new and struggling I was doing some work for her as needed.  Although we got along together, she is a harsh judge and two-faced.  She was often riding an emotional roller coaster.  What I really mean to say is, she was a drama queen!  In a nano second, she could blow up and go from joking to Jerry Springer over little bitty unimportant things.

Unpredictable is a good way to describe her.  If I had something planned for the day she often called me with something to do for her.  Money was included but not enough to make it worth tolerating her.  I’m an easy-going person and when it comes to making money sometimes I put up with behaviors that I shouldn’t.

That very evening of June 10th, she called to sever our joint venture because I wasn’t available on Sunday morning when she needed me for something that came up.  At first, I felt stunned because she didn’t act like it was serious until that evening.  Every other time, I was available to help her but because of this one Sunday morning when I wasn’t she cut the rope.

Less than five minutes later, I felt so GOOD!  Like someone let me out of prison.  It was then, I realized how she was draining my energy with her drama roller coaster rides.  I didn’t make much money in business with her but I spent a great deal of my time doing things that she was too busy to do.  Was she a Svengali with sinister motives?  No, I think she was more of a blood sucking control freak!  Maybe that’s not a huge difference though.

Isn’t that fascinating?  God gave me a message in the morning that my situation was like someone elses situation.  It should have been obvious right then who needed to get out of my life.  The Svengali in my life cut me loose that evening but I didn’t figure it all out until almost two weeks later.  How pathetically slow of me!  I thank God that He freed me from a draining business relationship before anything bad happened.  Bye bye Svengali!

Holes In My Money Bag Update #2

Money Bag in Blue

Money Bag in Blue (Photo credit: dolphinsdock)

Since I’ve decided to work on this blog each day before I work on my business I’ve felt better overall.  I’ve been eating less, sleeping better without sleeping more and feeling more positive about my finances.  I made a little money over the weekend in a nice surprise opportunity and I’m making more progress on starting my business.  Therefore, I will say that God does bless us when we put him first and do what he says.  I’ve still got more holes to sew up in my money bag.

See Holes In My Money Bag.

 

Holes In My Money Bag

Q:  “Lord, what am I doing wrong in business?  Why am I loosing money?”

I’m starting out in business on my own and I’ve had some limited success.  As soon as I start making money it stops and I end up broker.  I have asked God, “What am I doing wrong?”  Just recently, he has given me the answer.  I came across this scripture a few weeks ago online and heard it explained in more detail on TV on 4/22/2012.

A:  Haggai 1:4  Is it right for you to live in richly paneled houses while my temple is in ruins?”  1:5  “Here then is what the LORD who rules over all says:  ‘Think carefully about what you are doing.  1:6  You have planted much, but have harvested little.  You eat, but are never filled.  You drink, but are still thirsty.  You put on clothes, but are not warm.  Those who earn wages end up with holes in their money bags.’”  1:7 “Moreover, the LORD who rules over all says:  ‘Pay close attention to these things also.  1:8  Go up to he hill country and bring back timber to build the temple.  Then I will be pleased and honored, says the LORD.  1:9  ‘You expected a large harvest, but instead there was little, and when you brought it home it disappeared right away.  Why?’ asks the LORD who rules over all.  ‘Because my temple remains in ruins, thanks to each of you favoring his own house!  1:10  This is why the sky has held back its dew and the earth its produce.  1:11 Moreover, I have called for a drought that will affect the fields, the hill country, the grain, new wine, fresh olive oil, and everything they produce.

Here’s the insider information.  This is my first blog and I want it to be more than informative, I want it to be a guide to the one true living God.  It is my way of telling people, God wants us to talk to him, ask him questions and expect answers.  On several occasions, I told God and myself that I would work on this blog first thing and add to it on a regular basis but instead I watched TV, fell asleep, read other blogs, worked on the yard or cleaned up my house.  Worst of all, I worked on my business first and did little with this blog!

I did this too. 

 1:9  You expected a large harvest, but instead there was little, and when you brought it home it disappeared right away.  Why?’ asks the LORD who rules over all.  ‘Because my temple remains in ruins, thanks to each of you favoring his own house!

That’s me 100%.  I have favored my house while the thing that I devoted to GOD is in ruins.

Just as the scripture says, 1:6  “You have planted much, but have harvested little.”  I’ve made money but it disappeared.  When business picked up it suddenly stopped and I’m left confused and frustrated.  I did not do what I told God I would do and I put him last therefore, he has done the same to me.

Also, I did this, “Those who earn wages end up with holes in their money bags.” All of my money has fallen through the holes in my bag!  This is a serious problem.  I’ve not made enough to pay all of my bills so I’m living off of savings.  However, my savings is quickly dwindling away so to fill the gap I use my credit card and this only puts me in more debt.  This is not where I planned to be.

Q:  Now how can I turn this bad financial situation around?

A:  Do what he said to do.  1:7  “Moreover, the LORD who rules over all says:  ‘Pay close attention to these things also.  1:8  Go up to he hill country and bring back timber to build the temple.  Then I will be pleased and honored, says the LORD.”  Translation, go to where there is building material and bring that material back so that I can build the “temple” that I promised to God.

Q:  When should I do this?  I’ll have time after I get a business site, cards made and advertize. 

1:11 Moreover, I have called for a drought that will affect the fields, the hill country, the grain, new wine, fresh olive oil, and everything they produce.”  I feel a drought coming that will negatively affect all of the food that I eat, the hill country where the building material is, the carbohydrates that I need to do the work, wine i.e. good times, the cold pressed virgin olive oil that is healthy and everything else that I need to live!

A:  Do it NOW!

Haggai 1:13  Then Haggai, the LORD’s messenger, spoke the LORD’s word to the people:  “I am with you!” says the LORD.  1:14 So the LORD energized and encouraged” [the leaders] “and the whole remnant of the people.  They came and worked on the temple of their God, the LORD who rules over all.

So now, I’m adding to this blog and will add more on a regular basis.  I will let everyone know how my business does after this.  If you have anything to add or any questions please leave a post.

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hole (Photo credit: Sean MacEntee)